Foundation for Change

I sit here, frustrated with many things...  Money, the dishes, my friends, troubles taking initiative with projects I've promised others I'd start...  And I find myself in a loop, making excuses for every problem to come about.

I'm having trouble with money?  Well, I'll blame my smoking habit, and tell myself "I'll quit next month."

I'm angry about the dishes?  I'll just blame my roommate for not doing a better job with them.


Etc.


Yet, here I sit, fully aware that this is all BS.  I can easily resolve all of the things that are bugging me.  I'm at that point in my life where I know I need to move forth.  To learn and grow.  But it's scary.  Damn scary.

I think a lot of people get used to that feeling.  Feeling frightened of the change ahead.  People do it with everything- work, love, school, social ventures...  Everything.  The problem is creating a foundation to change and mature.  That's always the hardest part.


I think that will be my goal for the next few months.  Pour the concrete for a foundation for change in my life.